Surely There’s More?!

I’m in a weird mood today.

This morning I was struck by how mundane life can be.

Five days a week, I wake up, have a shower, dress up and head to work. I sit at my desk counting down to the earliest second when I can exit the building without looking like a skiver. I think of all the things I could be doing at home and the grass seems greener on that side.

I get home and all the wonderful things I planned to do evaporate like rain on a hot summer’s day. I didn’t write jack, read my bible or practice on my guitar. By the time my eyes are sealing themselves shut, I can’t think of anything I’ve done besides watch Home and Away, Eastenders and stuff myself with twice my recommended daily allowance of calories in one sitting.

Is this it? Is this all life has to offer?

At the weekends, I hang out with family and friends. We gossip some, go out for a bite, watch a play, movie, go to a party…whatever floats our boats. Other times I shut myself away, desperate for some MEE time. On Sundays I go to church and listen to yet another sermon and sing yet another song, while sitting next to the same old people.

Is this it? Is this all life has to offer?

My days roll into weeks, my weeks into months and months into years. Before I realise what’s happening I’ll be dead and buried. Hopefully I’ll have written a few books and been married with a few kids, grand kids if I’m fortunate.

There are only so many movies a girl can watch. So many gossip sessions a girl can have. So many birthday parties, weddings and leaving do’s a girl can attend. So much dancing a girl can do. So much food a girl can eat. So many sermons a girl can hear. So many songs a girl can sing. There is only so much money a girl can spend. I don’t even have the space for all the garbage I buy!

I can’t shake the feeling that at the end of it all I’ll be asking the question, ‘Is that it? Is that all I did with my life?’

Surely there’s more to life than this?! 

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3 comments

  1. uhhhh somebody’s edgy this morning, cheer up luv 🙂 ….I can totally relate, I had one of those moments this past weekend especially as it was an exhausting preceeding week….almost like an anti-climax of some sort….never mind it will pass and you will be back to appreciating life as you know it. I guess that’s why knowing what your God give purpose is makes all the difference. It gives you a reason to do the things you do…..e go better or as my people say, o ga dinma.x

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  2. GBAO well stated!!!

    I honestly can’t say that I feel the way you do, but then again I guess we lead very different lives.

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